Searching, searching, always searching

The tools that WordPress give us bloggers are pretty neat and one of the best, for me, is “Search Engine Terms”. This is a list of what people have searched for prior to arriving at your blog; I’m always fascinated by, firstly, the sort of things that people search for and, secondly, the fact that those searches lead people to The Wolf’s Howl.

Some of them are easy to understand; a lot of people find this blog after searching for “usbport.sys”, but then I’ve written a couple of posts about this most difficult of Windows system files. Most of the searches can be tied-in somehow to posts I’ve written (”jason wolf weight loss blog” covers quite a few) but today a search term that I am proud to see appeared in my list: “unsociable git”. Constant Readers will be aware that I’ve written a couple of posts about my lack of social graces and now it’s official. Using Google, The Wolf’s Howl comes up tenth when searching for that phrase. Now that’s a claim to fame.

Of course, I’m not really sure why anyone would be searching for “unsociable git” on Google - that perhaps says as much (if not more) about the searcher than it does about me.

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Colin McRae

I would just to like to take a moment to add my voice to the many that have today paid tribute to Colin McRae, who died yesterday in a helicopter crash near his home in Scotland. As a fan of all things related to motorsport, I was always a big fan of Colin and his supreme ability at the wheel of a rally car. His World Championship was just the icing on the cake for a man who took an often overlooked sport and made it matter to hundreds of thousands of British rally fans.

He will be sadly missed.

FIA loves Ferrari, hates McLaren

http://news.bbc.co.uk/sport1/hi/motorsport/formula_one/6991147.stm
http://www.formula1.com/news/headlines/2007/9/6767.html

It’s been obvious for a few years that the FIA - the governing body of Formula One motor racing - are big fans of Ferrari. Today it’s been shown that they will do all they can to bring Ferrari back to the top when Ferrari’s cars and drivers aren’t doing the job. In the “spying”row that still hasn’t been adequately explained to the viewing public, McLaren have now been found guilty, excluded from the constructors championship and fined $100m.

Isn’t it about time the farce that Formula One has become was put out to grass?

Update: the FIA has published it’s full decision on the issue (read it here); looks like - despite what they’ve said in public - McLaren were a bit more involved in the whole thing, and that there was a regular throughput of information from Stepney (Ferrari) to Coughlan (McLaren) rather than just the one document. What the FIA has not been able to do, though, is to prove conclusively that the leaked information was used to make changes to the McLaren cars.

I suppose, really, that no-one should be surprised by this level of industrial espionage in Formula One. There is a lot of money at stake, which makes the actual racing almost a secondary consideration.

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What’s the one constant thing in every relationship you’ve ever had?

You. Or, in my case, me. And events this week have suggested this may not be the best thing in the world.

A couple of weeks ago, I answered a question on a Facebook discussion board. The question was “Why are you single?” My answer was (brutally) honest:

Because I’m a miserable, unsociable git who doesn’t go anywhere to meet anyone but when I do, she turns out to be a psychotic alcoholic with SO many problems that I just couldn’t deal.

Oh, and I’m also terrible to live with.

But apart from that, I really don’t know the reason why I’m still single.

Now, I should probably explain at this point that my ’successes’ with women can be counted on the fingers of one hand, with some left over for spare. Over the years I’ve put this down to a number of things, but I keep coming back to that one constant thing; me.

So when I got a message replying to that post I thought my luck was about to change. An attractive, fun-sounding girl had actually thought this was quite funny and we started to message each other. We talked about all sorts of things, we spoke once on the phone, and we decided that we’d get together.

So far, so great. She seemed really nice, I tried not to sound too boring or geeky (but I think I may have failed on both of those points), she looked really good in all her Facebook pictures, I’d found at least one picture of me that wasn’t too hideous to use as my profile picture, she likes tall men, I’m tall and so on. I was really looking forward to meeting her.

There were two big drawbacks though; the first is that up to this point most of our friendship had been carried out by Facebook message. Having an electronic conversation is not like having a real one - you get time to ponder your reply, to re-write it, to decide not to say that at all, before sending it off out into the ether. This helps enormously when you’re not very good at conversation. The second is that at 5.30 on Saturday I was going to be plunged into “put up or shut up” time.

After a day spent indulging my petrolheadedness at the Speed Trials, I went off to meet her. It was a glorious sunny day, lovely and warm (I looked like a beetroot because I’d been out in it all day, even though I had tried to make an effort to smarten myself up) and she looked a vision as she walked up the road towards me, dressed all in blue and looking summery. It felt like a good start.

We sat outside the pub for a couple of hours and chatted, had a few drinks, the sort of thing you do in a pub. It all seemed, to me, to go quite well. We parted with a hug and went off to our separate plans for the evening.

And this is where it all started to go a bit wrong. Me, being the type of person that I am, rather than just saying “Great to meet you; hope we can do it again soon” jumped in with both feet and sent over-the-top messages later that night. I stopped short of pledging undying love, but only just I fear. Unsurprisingly heard nothing back. So tried again Sunday, with a somewhat toned-down message. And Monday with a question asking what did I do so badly that she didn’t even want to return my messages.

Turns out Saturday hadn’t gone as well as I thought. I’m not great at new social situations; ask anyone who’s known me for any length of time and they’ll probably tell you that it can take years to get to know me. They’ll also tell you I’m a moody git and that so many years of living on my own have not improved the situation. Turns out I came across as negative and bitter, on top of which we didn’t have much in common. To further cock-it-up, because of the over-the-top messages I’d sent, just being friends was now out the window too.

I was so nervous in the days leading up to meeting her. At about 5pm on Saturday, I was ever so quietly having a panic attack. Waiting for her outside the pub I would probably have bolted except for the fact that she’d already called to make sure I was going to be there. I’m was a nervous wreck in the pub; so I drank quite quickly on a pretty much empty stomach, which I’m sure didn’t help. It certainly didn’t help later when I sent those damn messages.

In the following days, when I was getting no replies to my messages, I was getting more and more convinced that I’d done something really bad. To the point where I couldn’t sleep and was physically ill with concern over what it might have been. It’s been a rollercoaster week for sure.

I got a reply today and I’ve just about finished kicking myself for being such a prat. You think back and you think “Oh. Yeah…. damn.” Until it’s pointed out to you, you don’t see it. But once you see it, you think further back and you realise that the one constant thing in every relationship you’ve ever had is you.

Bugger.

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Songs are around whenever you need them

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Do you ever get those times when you need a particular song to play? Maybe you’re getting all dressed up for your first date with a new girl or guy and want something to take away those nerves. Maybe you’re annoyed at that dumb-ass customer who just doesn’t understand and need something to chill you out. Maybe you’re down about something and you need cheering up. Or maybe you just love music and want to hear some kicking tunes.

I’ve used music for all these things and more, and the one thing I can be sure of is that it never disappoints. I’ve realised this again over the last few weeks - since getting the new Mac - as I’ve been slowly digitising my entire CD collection into iTunes. The process has helped me to re-experience some of the music that I haven’t listened to in ages, to remind me why I loved it and to re-kindle all sorts of emotions and memories (good and bad).

I’ve also been playing about with the iLike application on Facebook in the last few days and it made me think about the songs that I really love; those songs that either completely capture a moment or are just so good muscially that they never fade. So, I thought that I’d share a few of my favourites with you, Constant Reader. Some will be obvious - they are just that good - others I’ll tell you the reasons why I love them. Others I maybe won’t tell you the reason, but you might be able to figure it out for yourself. Let’s call it Wolfie’s (in no particular order) Top Ten.

Year of the Cat by Al Stewart
This is definitely top of the tree; since I first heard this, I’ve loved it. The breadth of the musicality, the bittersweet nature of the lyrics (I think I probably first heard it on Ambrose Harcourt’s late night sho on Southern Sound - AM radio man!). Brilliant opening:

On a morning from a Bogart movie, in a country where they turn back time
You go strolling through the crowd like Peter Lorre contemplating a crime
She comes out of the sun in a silk dress, running like a water colour in the rain
Don’t bother asking for explanations she’ll just tell you that she came in the year of the cat

Werewolves of London by Warren Zevon
This is most likely the only Warren Zevon song you’ve ever heard, unless you’re a fan. He doesn’t seem to get much coverage on mainstream radio. The only werewolf song that wasn’t used in An American Werewolf in London (supposedly because the man himself objected) but the one that is most fitting. Comic horror (“little old lady got mutilated late last night”, “saw a werewolf drinking a Pina Colada at Trader Vic’s; his hair was perfect”) and a fantastic tune.

England by Ralph McTell
I first heard this as the theme tune for the TV series that Billy Connolly did as he travelled round the British Isles. Again it’s one of those bittersweet sort of songs, but with an uplifting melody and a resonating lyric that celebrates the country in which I live.

Now don’t make this out a battle hymn, or a song for victory.
It’s just a way to try to say what England means to me.
And our accents and our colours change
From the city to the farmland, from the moorland to the mountains
From the rivers to the sea.

Beautiful World by Colin Hay
If you don’t know him, Colin Hay was lead singer of Men At Work (Down Under was their big hit here in the UK). A while ago he appeared in an episode of Scrubs, singing a song called Overkill. As I tried to find that version of the song, I came across this gem. Just Colin and his guitar, the song pulls you in with beautiful imagery, but is all as beautiful as it seems?

All around is anger, automatic guns. There’s death in large numbers,
No respect for women or our little ones. I tried talking to Jesus,
He just put me on hold. Said he’d been swamped by calls this week
And he could not shake this cold.

Far Above The Clouds by Mike Oldfield
I’ve been a big fan of the Tubular Bells series since I first heard One years and years ago. This is the closing track from Three. A more dance-inspired album than the other two, Three leaves you on a high with this track; just as you think you’re not going to hear the bells, they crash in leaving you nowhere to go but into full bliss mode. This is the one track that is guaranteed to get me smiling, whatever mood I’m in before you play it to me and it will quite often go on loud on a Friday night, to pick me up from the travails of the week and set me up for the weekend. Nothing gives me chills like the chills that I get as the little girl speaks the final lines…

And the man in the rain picked up his bag of secrets
And journeyed up the mountainside, far above the clouds
And nothing was ever heard from him again
Except for the sound of Tubular Bells!

Bad Moon Rising by Creedence Clearwater Revival
It’s tough to pick just one song by Creedence, they have so many excellent ones, but I think this one perfectly encapsulates why I think they are possibly the greatest band of the 20th Century. No frills, driving rock ‘n’ roll, with that unmistakable guitar sound and screaming voice.

I first got into Creedence through two films; Twilight Zone - The Movie featured their version of Midnight Special in the opening segment, with Dan Ackyroyd and Albert Brooks (”Do you wanna see something really scary”) and Bad Moon Rising was, of course, fearured in An American Werewolf in London. I’d never heard of Creedence before I saw Zone, but you can bet that as soon as possible afterwards I found out all about them. Check out their 11 minute version of I Heard It Through The Grapevine - absolutely brilliant - and tracks like It Came Out Of The Sky, Have You Ever Seen The Rain and Fortunate Son.

Raincoat And A Rose, Tell Me There’s A Heaven and She Closed Her Eyes by Chris Rea
My absolute all-time favourite music artist by miles. I was introduced to his music by two friends (both called Ian), one who played me Stainsby Girls from the Shamrock Diaries album and the other who played me Josie’s Tune from Dancing With Strangers. Since then I’ve been hooked, seeing him in concert more times than any other artist. His change to a more bluesy direction after his illness is, to me, the work of a supreme genius.

It was impossible for me to pick just one track from the man, and it’s been hard to limit myself to just three but the ones I’ve picked are special to me for one reason or another.

She Closed Her Eyes is the closing track of the Espresso Logic album and is really a poem, read over a lilting accompaniment. It’s one of those tracks where the lyrics either pass you over entirely or really make you stop and think. The closing lines are what do it for me:

Chasing it like it was everything; it was nothing.
Only the sound of his own breathing was all he really had at the end of the day
And reasons to wonder, reasons to cry, too late for this selfish sinner
Who never asked “Why?”

Tell Me There’s A Heaven is the closing track on Road To Hell, which was really the album that put Rea on the map. Everyone remembers the title track - a rocking lament on the state of the world, inspired and typified by the M25 around London - but only those who listen to the whole album will know this track. Again, almost a poem the tone here is much darker and gives no real cause for hope of redemption - but it is the stand-out track for me.

The little girl she said to me “What are these things that I can see?”
“Each night when I come home from school, when Momma calls me in for tea?”

For me, Raincoat And A Rose (from the early album Deltics) is a song that I identify with very much; it’s an intensely personal song, describing a person who has never been very lucky in love and who is embarking on a blind date in what may well be the last chance they’ll get at finding happiness.

Love is for fools and fools have no grace, damn them while you can
Out here on the fence it’s such a lonely place, I wish I was foolish now

Sailing by Rod Stewart
A little ago I wrote quite a long post about how music can resurrect memories that you didn’t necessarily want to relive (I won’t re-hash it here, check it out using this link if you like). Suffice to say that this song is very emotionally tied-up with my father, who I never knew because he was killed in a motorcycle accident when I was still a baby. It reminds me, too, of my mother who had to deal with her husbands death only months after her only child almost died. When I hear it, I realise that she never did get the son she deserved.

Once Is Enough by Aerosmith and Just A Gigolo / I Ain’t Got Nobody by David Lee Roth
I’m not a massive fan of either Aerosmith or David Lee Roth, but these two songs take me back to happy times; nights out at the Plough & Harrow at Jevington, watching a succession of artists like Ivan Phillips (“Do you do Mustang Sally?”) or Brian (“I remember Pawis in ‘49″) - heck even The Boogie Brothers - having a skinful to drink and then blasting back to Seaford, sun-roof surfing to the strains of Aerosmith and David Lee Roth.

The Aerosmith track is difficult to find and when you first hear it you won’t know it’s them; it sounds like some deranged C&W band that have had too much moonshine that night. Then the drums and guitars kick-in and it’s rocking all the way. “Once is enough; it’s one time too many!”

David Lee Roth has a way of taking an established song and making it all his own. He does the same here and it’s a trip. If this is not in your collection, add it now. “Everywhere I go, people know the part Dave’s playing”

Get Over It by Eagles
When Don Henley and the guys came back in ‘94 (”We never broke up; we just took a 14 year vacation”) for the Hell Freezes Over tour, they wanted to write some new material. This was one of the songs and it’s a scathing comment on the Ricki Lake, Oprah, Jerry Springer, Trisha generation. Having shared house space with at least two people like this over the years (they know who they are, and anyone that knows me probably knows who they are too), the line “I’d like to find your inner child and kick it’s little ass, get over it!” is one that sticks with me.

Well, that’s 10 (sort of) and I realise that I haven’t even got started yet. Anyone who knows me will be surprised to see no Dire Straits or Mark Knopfler in this list (bubbling under with Brothers In Arms and Silvertown Blues), and I haven’t had room for Feels Like Home by Bonnie Raitt, King Creole by Elvis Presley, Time by Pink Floyd, Left In The Dark by Meatloaf, That’s Life by Frank Sinatra or hundreds of others.You probably won’t agree with my choices (I wouldn’t expect you to) but hopefully you’ll at least check them out and maybe together we can spread the word about great music.

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